Thanks for your comments MisterW. While it is unusual, it is fact that learning new skills and muscle memory takes twice as long for me as it would a normal person. I do not know why, but it has been that way throughout my life. Reading up on experiences and seeing how easily people advance makes me angry with myself.
I just feel that it extremely frustrating that I have been typing on QWERTY for more than 2 years now and the only bit of muscle memory that I have is pressing the BackSpace.
I'm not a defeated. I won't give up. Didn't when Colemak was hard. Stuck with that for 2 years. But when I was finally making progress with it, I made the switch to QWERTY for the very reasons mentioned when I started this thread.
At the moment, I find that when I keep in doing a certain paragraph on typeracer over and over again, my WPM and accuracy goes down. They say practice makes perfect, but I experience it having the opposite effect.
One thing that I do appreciate is the prior to my adventures with Dvorak and Colemak, I was using my own hunt and peck method with QWERTY. Now, even though every second keystroke is a backspace, I am able to type without looking at the keyboard. That shows at least while my fingers are not working properly, my brain at least has memorized the layout.
It is now even more difficult since I shifted to a mechanical keyboard. My old Apple A1243 was a great keyboard. Although it stopped working, it certainly felt more better than this RAZOR BlackWidow with Blue Cherry MX.